Counseling Day 1

I started counseling today. I told her all about our marriage and our relationship. I feel stupid. Getting it all out on the table with no fluff. It was stark and glaring and embarassing. Embarrassing because it shows me 2 things:

1) that I'm very strong
2) that I'm very stupid

Probably a little bit of both - I guess when I took my marriage vows and I said for better or for worse. I guess I really meant it and you are trying your hardest to show me what the worst REALLY looks like.

I told her about our marriage and I told her that you are a child of an alcoholic father. I told her about how your family CAN'T communicate that you ignore one another. I told her that you can't communicate that you ignore me. That instead of working out problems you either clam up and blow me off and then do whatever you want to do anyway or belittle me. I told her about how you aren't responsible and are a perpetual kid. I wonder if you will realize this and take ownership for it. I wonder if our marriage will survive this. On Day 1 I doubt it. I'm preparing myself for divorce. I dont want to be blindsided like I was with your affair.

I knew your parents screwed you up and now I have confirmation from a professional. Yay me! But what is the use in being right?

Do you know it? Do you believe it. Will you do something about it? You have a one-on-one session with her on Saturday. Wonder what will come out of that.