My outlet

We all have trials in our life. I know that. I've experienced some pretty significant ones in my 30+ years on this earth. Trials come in 3 ways:

1) consequences of our own actions
2) consequences of someone else's actions
3) randomly just because we are on this earth (the rain falls on everyone when they are standing outside)

This is my blog to get through this trial. This is my way to share my thoughts and feelings when I feel like I need to without taking ownership that these thoughts and feelings are coming from me.

I've been writing to myself when I feel like I need an outlet. So sometimes I will recall certains days sometimes I will want to mull over a certain subject. I think I'm just going to go with it, however it can be therapeutic to me is how it will have to be.

I'm hoping that this will help me. I'm going on 9 months since I found out about my husband's affair and I think I am better in a lot of ways but for the most part I have felt like I have been suffering in silence. I see other people in church who are going through trials that people know of and although I dont begrudge them any of that sympathy. I want to say "comfort me too! I need a word of hope or some encouragement. " I have a really good friend that has been my support through this. I know it has been a drain on her the weight of the burden she carries of knowing the things that she knows so I've been looking for other outlets to relieve the burden from her. This is my outlet.